My mind runs at such a rapid pace sometimes it’s hard to hear the real thoughts.
It’s been a rough week; I put my resignation letter in my current 11 month job. I really liked it there but it’s about an hour from my home and the pay was a bit low for my liking. I barely made a dent in my credit cards or other bills. The people there are great and I really liked them but sometimes you have to do what’s best for you and your family.
I got something new, it pays better and it’s closer to home. Sometimes the mental state of feeling bad plays tricks through your mind. I just feel bad because I hate letting people down but let’s face it; they’re going to move on with or without me. The world doesn’t stop for me; even if my mind wants to believe it does. I’ll go around in circles feeling guilty, feeling good. I know I did the right thing but I have a mental debate.
Even when my last job of eight years let me go; I literally felt bad and yes I didn’t like the way my manager ran things. I would have conflicts with him so much but inside I really liked the guy. The travel there was insane and I couldn’t do it. It’s just a weird feeling to let go of something you’ve done everyday in the rinse and repeat cycle. I always think about others and the people I consider friends. I was smart at this job. I did not get personal with anyone because let’s face it, not everyone is going to care when you leave. Yes there will be a few people who are, your friends but when the lever drops and the door shuts only a few people will remember you.
I got to stand up and believe things; happen for a reason because they do. Opportunities fall in our laps because it’s meant to be. So get up and go do it; don’t think too much about it. Easier said than done but it’s the damn truth. You just have to live by the old saying “It is what it is.” Move on and live.